I am in *Misery* / Angels in disduise

A lot of things that I wanna say

These few days I was feeling miserable. I don't know how to describe it.

I was so miserable. I read my bible and I prayed. I cried as I read Psalms. And I asked God to send people to talk to me. But I couldn't wait for someone to come to me. I was so desperate and I just clicked names on facebook chat to talk to them.

Thank God for wonderful friends. They were like ever-ready just be there for me. I just asked them to pray for me and I shared my problems with them. And after that some just came and shared to me when they saw my facebook status.

Thank you guys and girls. You all are really wonderful people. Thanks to Ming Wei, Jared, Callie-jie, xiaoJohn, Wen Ji, Jenny (you're such a sweet girl!!!), Li Khai, Jon (thanks for the sharing!) and Josh... and also everyone who remembers me in prayer. You all are angels in disguise.

It was like I don't wanna go anywhere but home. I don't really wanna go back to JB, but I wanna be at home! And I don't feel excited about what's ahead of me. I feel kinda lost. It's a feeling of uncertainty. I was so desperate and I cried out to God, and I believe He comforts me with His words and through His people.

PSM2 kinda giving me stress. I didn't do much, but I just felt sick whenever I wanna start.

And also I was kind of worried because of my family. I wanna start earning money! (Aww... always think about money, this is not a good thing)

I think I feel kinda lonely sometimes. Someone told me I need a quiet time with God. I think I have to be fixed. Something's wrong with me. I'm just like a car not going for maintenance for a long long time. Need to have spiritual check-up everyday.

I still don't really know what was that. I mean the miserable feeling.

I feel like going back to where Soneja is.

I feel like grabbing my guitar and just go somewhere and sing.

Thank You for sustaining me.You're my one and only way

Anyway a song for the angels in disguise, cuz I don't know how to express my gratitude

Angel in disguise by Corinne May

I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and I stumbled out of bed and
dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'

Oh~ But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
And I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise

I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea

Oh~ But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise

Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side

Oooh~~

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise

I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new