Long time!

Time goes so fast. I'll be doing some update very soon

Anyway, I'm 24 this year

Some updates

It's been long... I started my internship since 2 months ago. I can't wait to see my project done

Aww. Want a breakthrough in my life

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I've been thinking about my job. I mean my future career

What do I wanna do?

I'm trying to be positive. I like programing actually, but... not staring at screen for the whole day.

I wanna do something meaningful.

Wanna feel achievement in my job :/

There's nothing I can do, but in You

Today I felt, there's like nothing I can do

During lunch, I couldn't finish the noodles.

Thinking about children who starved and died, I felt sick.

So many people in need, and there's like nothing I can do.

God I wanna do something for those in need, use me to reach out to them

人長大后，梦想就好像不見了

(Dreams seem to disappear when you become a grown-up)

I watched a Taiwan movie 【六局下半】, about a cop who is raising money for his daughter to further study in foreign country, and a boy who wants to become a dancer.

One of the scenes, the daughter had this dialogue with the father. (Can't remember exactly the actual lines)

女儿：爸爸，我出国让你负担很重？
父：哪有，乱讲。那是你的梦想
女儿：爸爸，那你的梦想是什么？
父：人长大了以后，梦想就好像不见了。

Awww. Dreams.

I was feeling a bit isolated. Since I came back here, I hardly contact anyone. Sometimes I think I'm kind of like anti-social.

I think I have to expand my social network. Make more friends.

At times like this, I feel that O need God more.

A very simple song dedicated to all - Breathe by Michael W. Smith

This is the air I breathe
This is the air I breathe
Your holy presence living in me

This is my daily bread
This is my daily bread
Your very word spoken to me

And I, I'm desperate for you
And I, I'm lost without you

What's next?

Watched this show about a celebrity (Fann Wong) went to Thailand as a volunteer and helped the people there.

And I miss them.

The kids, the people over there.

Somehow I believe working at the office 8 hours/day and 5 days/week is not that kind of life that I want : |

Oh God, what's next?

Don't misuse that

Sometimes I think: Do I love God enough? Am I doing much enough?

Arg. Guess I'll say no. I'm not satisfied with myself.

Quite a while ago I read a blog of someone. Very encouraging. That's why I love Godly people.

Thank you for being a blessing. And thank You too, for being patient with me.

But can't misuse that.

Fighting!!!

You're an angel! Thank you

Today is my 3rd day of internship. Thank God I finally know how to get to my working place. A very kindhearted lady showed me the way, what buses to take etc. She must be an angel ❤

Well, I only have 4 colleagues here + boss. All guys. So today as I went out of toilet I found that the rest went for lunch already. The boss wasn't around and one of the guys brings his own lunch. Anyway, I don't mind having lunch alone. Seriously. It's easier than eating with strangers(?). But I think I have to socialize a bit lah. So. Yeah. But if it was me, I would wait and ask the new colleague to join me. Difference between guys and girls? But there are guys who are considerate too!!! Argggg miss my friends

Nevermind. The kind lady who helped me this morning already brighten up my day enough.

Thank you. You must be an angel

No time D:

I have no time for myself D:

Goodness. I should arrange my time well. Work can kill one. I don't even have time to watch Two and a Half Men and draw!

But I'm thankful I'm doing something that I like (so far I feel so). Programming + media (game programming includes graphic design). Thank God for the internship placement.

It's 12.24a.m. and this should be early for me, but I really tak boleh tahan.

Good night. (Still trying to install Microsoft Visual Studio 2008)

Hoping...

I'm starting my internship tomorrow.

Hope I'll still have time to blog.

Negaraku

 The BERSIH 2.0 rally is today. I just hope that no one got hurt or anything. I want PEACE! Many videos and photos were uploaded on internet.

One thing touched my heart, when I saw a friend of mine posted this status:

Negaraku, tanah tumpahnya darahku
Rakyat hidup bersatu dan maju

Amen, amen. Pray that we can be united. 

How good and pleasant it is when God’s people live together in unity!  (Psalm 133:1)

Lord, grant us unity.

Bye baby

My dear TGM baby,

Bye baby. I didn't really bought you but we've been together for so long. Around 2 years plus. Now I'm giving you away. I've been thinking about it. I know even though we have Hofma and Yamaha F310 at home, I'll still stick to you. But now we have extra, and I should bless people with what I have. So even though I love you very much and wanna bring you back, I still decided to leave you here. Dear babe, I won't forget you. You're not the first guitar I played, but you're my first one! You're considered as mine. But we have to move on.

God bless those who are going to use you.

Google Guitar! & other Google logos

Play Google Guitar! Les Paul's 96th Birthday xp [animated]

Also Robert Bunsen's 200th Birthday. I hope you heard about Bunsen burner. [animated]

 

And Jules Verne's 183rd Birthday. Jules Verne (1828-1905), noted French scientific author wrote Around the World in Eighty Days (1873), Journey to the Center of the Earth (1864), and Twenty Thousand Leagues Under The Sea (1869). Click here to see the HD version of this Google logo. [animated]

Nov 08 - Discovery of X-Rays

 

Happy Halloween - Part 1 to 5!!! (Scooby Doo!)

 

 

Agatha Christie's 120th Birthday 

 

 

Jun 29 - Antoine de Saint-Exupery's 110th Birthday. (Little Prince is in it!!! Please don't tell me you don't know about the book. Try to Google and read it. It's nice!)

 

LOL! PAC-MAN's 30th Anniversary! You can actually play PAC-MAN at the site! [animated] 

 

 

Okay the last one. Thumbelina!!! Hans Christian Andersen's 205th Birthday!!!

 

 

I like Google. There's so much fun!!! :)

Half of the year is gone

Yea. Read the title.

It's already 2nd July.

And also, I'm going back to JB for internship and so on. Arg. I start thinking whether I can get used to my old church. Last time I couldn't get used to CCC's service cuz the service is shorter. Now I'm already used to it :O Also GPS is bilingual punya.

Perhaps my English speaking will be like so GG. I don't mean I speak so well now. But it is more fluent than before.

And I wanna make some short term goals (for July - December 2011):
1. To learn something during this internship and make an impact for God in my company (even though it's only 6 months)
2. Seek God about my future. I wanna flow with His plan, not mine.
3. Commit myself in my relationship with God, to be closer to Him. Consistency of prayers, devotion and reading of His words.
4. Play guitar better ( I don't really know how to set a goal for this. I mean, to describe it technically or physically?) - watch some Youtube videos, practice more etc
5. Learn cooking and do household chores
6. Exercise!!! With consistency
7. Keep in touch with Malacca friends (This is important)... I wanna visit my sis and other friends in KL at least once before end of the year! Also wanna visit friends in Singapore!
8. This one is kinda optional. I hope I can learn a media programming software. eg Blender or Synfig.

Aww... have to pray. And pray harder

p/s: Anyway... I added two more

9. Have a good financial planning! Got debts to pay!
10. To be caring! We need a heart-warming community :)

Love you all (I don't know who's reading this anyway xp). Good night

Scissor + Paper + Marker: Bye bye & Durian love!

(I'm too lazy to change the blog address in the pictures from cin-yi to cinyi...)

All the best!

 For all my friends... either we are going for internship or really gonna work dy... All the best! I'll miss you all! May God pour out His blessings on His people!

Durian = thorny? Duri = Thorn

I likee durian. Very heaty though. Once a while only I eat durian. Anyway I think durian is amazing. It has thorns, but the flesh are so softy and so nicee~ And the fragrance even stays for a long time in your digestive system LOL. It's like TRUE LOVE! You'll see the inside of someone, not the outside :) Ahh someday we'll find our durian, and people who loves us as the durian lover~ Anyway I won't unfriend those who don't eat durian ;)

Should be Duricious :X

Matrix!!! Classic quotes

I always think that Matrix is a must watch for the IT people. It's just so IT, and so zen.

Some nice quotes I likee... 

Morpheus: If real is what you can feel, smell, taste and see, then 'real' is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain 

And this spoon thing is classic! 

Spoon boy: Do not try and bend the spoon. That's impossible. Instead... only try to realize the truth.
Neo: What truth?
Spoon boy: There is no spoon.
Neo: There is no spoon?
Spoon boy: Then you'll see, that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself. 

Agent Smith: I'd like to share a revelation that I've had during my time here. It came to me when I tried to classify your species and I realized that you're not actually mammals. Every mammal on this planet instinctively develops a natural equilibrium with the surrounding environment but you humans do not. You move to an area and you multiply and multiply until every natural resource is consumed and the only way you can survive is to spread to another area. There is another organism on this planet that follows the same pattern. Do you know what it is? A virus. Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet. You're a plague and we are the cure.

Cypher: You know, I know this steak doesn't exist. I know that when I put it in my mouth, the Matrix is telling my brain that it is juicy and delicious. After nine years, you know what I realize?
[Takes a bite of steak]
Cypher: Ignorance is bliss. 

And Morpheus is cool!

Commander Lock: Dammit, Morpheus. Not everyone believes what you believe.
Morpheus: My beliefs do not require them to.   

Councillor Hamann: That's how it is with people - nobody cares how it works as long as it works.

You changed me (and still changing me now)!

When I was much more younger, I was a very depressed kid. I used to think I was kind of useless and didn't feel loved. I was afraid of how people looked at me, maybe they talked at my back or what. But actually at that time I had friends at school, I was considered as one of the top students too. My family was also doing fine.

When I was 11, I started to go church with my family. Through going to church, I got to know Jesus more. And I learned that Jesus loves me. So it doesn't matter how people look at me, but God just loves us for who we are. And everyone has his/her strengths (and of course weaknesses), so no one is useless, or better or worse than someone else.

I got to learn a lot of things. But the most important thing is that I learn to love myself, people around me, and also love God back.

Thank God for everything! Just like the drawing: Everyone can be AWESOME! You are loved!

Just wanna share about what made a change in my life. I hope you already know your AWESOMENESS :D

星爺經典對白

一定要po啦，太想念星爷电影了。上网找了一下，筛选一些我喜欢的。觉得还有很多。星爷真是鬼才～

唐伯虎点秋香

燒雞翼, 我鍾~~~意食

小強！小強你點呀小強！小強你唔好死呀！我同你相依為命、同甘共苦左咁多年，一直將你當係親生骨肉咁供書，估唔到今日白頭人送黑頭人。

別人笑我太瘋癲，我笑他人看不穿，不見五陵豪傑墓，無花無酒鋤作田。

一鄉二里共三夫子，不識四書五經六義，竟敢教七八九子，十分大膽！
十室九貧，湊得八兩七錢六分五毫四厘，尚且三心二意，一等下流！

對穿腸：好工整啊！
華太師：華安，你來的正是時候。
唐伯虎：沒事，沒事，沒事。
對穿腸：在下是七省文狀元兼參謀將軍，綽號對王之王的對穿腸。閣下是？
唐伯虎：小弟讀過兩年書，塵世中一個迷途小書僮，華安。
對穿腸：好！我就來會一會你！
(兩人互相凝視，蓄勢待發，突然......親了一下......眾人跌倒在地！)
唐伯虎：對不起，我倆惺惺相惜，情不自禁。
對穿腸：言歸正傳，我們開始了。
圖書裡，龍不吟虎不嘯，小小書僮可笑可笑。
唐伯虎：棋盤裡，車無輪馬無韁，叫聲將軍提防提防。
眾 人：對得好！對得好！
對穿腸：鶯鶯燕燕翠翠紅紅處處融融洽洽。
唐伯虎：雨雨風風花花葉葉年年暮暮朝朝。
眾 人：華安真行啊！對得好！
寧 王：快出對子對死他，對死他！
對穿腸：十口心思，思君思國思社稷。
唐伯虎：八目尚賞，賞花賞月賞秋香。
對穿腸：我上等威風，顯現一身虎膽。
唐伯虎：你下流賤格，露出半個龜頭。
對穿腸：我堂堂參謀將軍會輸筆個書僮？
你家墳頭來種樹。
唐伯虎：汝家澡盆雜配魚。
對穿腸：魚肥果熟入我肚。
唐伯虎：你老娘來親下廚！
(對穿腸倒地噴血)
唐伯虎：對對本為消遣作樂，今日穿腸兄居然對到嘔出幾十兩血，
可謂空前絕後，小弟佩服佩服！

華夫人：我們一日喪命散是用七種不同的毒蟲，再加上了鶴紅， 提鍊了七七四十九日而成的，無色無味，殺人於無影無蹤！
唐伯虎：哼！我們含笑半步癲是用蜂蜜、川貝、桔梗、加上天山雪蓮配製而成， 不需冷藏，也沒有防腐劑，除了毒性猛烈之外，味道還很好吃！
華夫人：吃了我們一日喪命散的人，一天之內會武功全失，經脈逆流， 胡思亂想而致走火入魔，最後會血管爆裂而死。
唐伯虎：沒有錯！而吃了含笑半步癲的朋友， 顧名思義絕對不能走半步路或是面露笑容，否則也會全身爆炸而死。
實在是居家旅行......
華夫人：殺人滅口......
唐、華：必備良藥！

龍的傳人

隔壁阿強教了我一首詩，他說在香港會背就可以免費換一個漢堡飽吃！我好像記得是：非常厲害巨無霸，茄汁薯條漢堡飽，起士蕃茄加芝麻，人人吃了笑哈哈！

上海灘賭聖

叉燒包 誰愛吃剛出爐的叉燒包 誰愛吃剛出爐的叉燒包
還有那蓮蓉包呀豬油包呀魚翅包呀豆沙包呀應有盡有

大话西游：

你应该这么 做，我也应该死。曾经有一份真诚的爱情放在我面前，我没有珍惜，等我失去的时候我才后悔莫及，人世间最痛苦的事莫过于此。你的剑在我的咽喉上割下去吧！ 不用再犹豫了！如果上天能够给我一个再来一次的机会，我会对那个女孩子说三个字：我爱你。如果非要在这份爱上加上一个期限，我希望是......一万年！

整蛊专家

其实我就是改变社会风气，风魔万千少女，刺激电影市道，提高年轻人内涵，玉树临风，风度翩翩的整蛊专家，我名叫古晶，英文名叫Jing Koo！

奶油血滴子!奶油血滴子就是碰一碰就會弄得你滿臉奶油，是整人之霸最凶悍的整人攻擊型武器之一！

遙控電流香蕉，一按開關就放電，電得他秀斗，是相當主流派的整人武器！

誠實豆沙包，吃完了30秒之內說的話會誠誠實實，是90年代新科技的產品！

慚愧棒棒糖，吃了之後會對生前所做的錯事非常慚愧，是整人武器中的極品！

其他类：

对不起，我是卧底。

你看不见我你看不见我你看不见我......

意不意外？高不高兴？开不开心？

对不起啊，导演。嗯...... 根据角色的背景性格呢，等一下演的时候，在节奏上我想再调皮一点，但是又带点矛盾，你看怎么样？

你快点回火星吧，地球是很危险地。

剪头发不应该看别人怎么剪就发神经跟流行，要配合啊！你看你的发型，完全不配合你的脸型脸型又不配合身型，身型又和发型完全不搭，而且极度不配合啊！！欢哥！你究竟要怎么样啊？

Harp of David

Last night around 2 a.m.

I went down to the pondok downstairs, with my TGM. and had a little quiet time with God

Sang some songs, read Psalms

Thought of a story in bible which is about David played harp for King Saul

Sometimes I thought, is David a skillful player? Maybe. But what brings the presence of God is the life of David

So I unzipped the case, took the guitar and played.

I am never a skillful player. But as I played, and it was only simple progression, G and C, I felt God touched my heart, and my tears just flowed out.

I don't care what people thinks. Also stuff that I posted on facebook. Maybe some thinks that I wanna get attention or whatever. I don't care. I'm fine with You.

Thank You again

I am in *Misery* / Angels in disduise

A lot of things that I wanna say

These few days I was feeling miserable. I don't know how to describe it.

I was so miserable. I read my bible and I prayed. I cried as I read Psalms. And I asked God to send people to talk to me. But I couldn't wait for someone to come to me. I was so desperate and I just clicked names on facebook chat to talk to them.

Thank God for wonderful friends. They were like ever-ready just be there for me. I just asked them to pray for me and I shared my problems with them. And after that some just came and shared to me when they saw my facebook status.

Thank you guys and girls. You all are really wonderful people. Thanks to Ming Wei, Jared, Callie-jie, xiaoJohn, Wen Ji, Jenny (you're such a sweet girl!!!), Li Khai, Jon (thanks for the sharing!) and Josh... and also everyone who remembers me in prayer. You all are angels in disguise.

It was like I don't wanna go anywhere but home. I don't really wanna go back to JB, but I wanna be at home! And I don't feel excited about what's ahead of me. I feel kinda lost. It's a feeling of uncertainty. I was so desperate and I cried out to God, and I believe He comforts me with His words and through His people.

PSM2 kinda giving me stress. I didn't do much, but I just felt sick whenever I wanna start.

And also I was kind of worried because of my family. I wanna start earning money! (Aww... always think about money, this is not a good thing)

I think I feel kinda lonely sometimes. Someone told me I need a quiet time with God. I think I have to be fixed. Something's wrong with me. I'm just like a car not going for maintenance for a long long time. Need to have spiritual check-up everyday.

I still don't really know what was that. I mean the miserable feeling.

I feel like going back to where Soneja is.

I feel like grabbing my guitar and just go somewhere and sing.

Thank You for sustaining me.You're my one and only way

Anyway a song for the angels in disguise, cuz I don't know how to express my gratitude

Angel in disguise by Corinne May

I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and I stumbled out of bed and
dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'

Oh~ But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
And I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise

I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea

Oh~ But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise

Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side

Oooh~~

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise

I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new